oh yea
me too

i prefer to think of things in like, a month.but sometimes 5 min in advance is too depressing

but i"m on the right track. I was so fucking hard to just find the track and get on it. now I have to figure out how to stay on the right track.
i have to do it.

Libi, both you and Lily Pea are perfect.

For me it's best to make whatever choices validates me the most.

And sometimes too uncomfortable isn't the WORST that could happen...I suppose worse is when you're in something you don't deserve and you keep pecking away at it anyhow. (Speaking from recent experience.)

maybe it isnt the future that makes you uncomfortable, perhaps it is the lawyer.

@Dally i don't think so. i like him quite a lot.

@little_p agreed, i feel like i am finally on the right track too. but i can't stay on it if i think about things that are too far in advance. i have to go from this present moment to the next present moment.

thinking of the future is dangerous.

but.

he makes me think about the future. and i like him and his wolfy smile.

so the lawyer makes you think of the future but in order to remain on the right track you have to live from this present moment to the next present moment.

Sounds like a moral dilemma that you already know the answer to.

such awful thoughts

my friend Hannah who has not met the lawyer assessed the situation thus: "you need to date someone who has some chance of out-smarting you at least a couple times in his life". which is certainly true of the lawyer.

I don't understand why women want a man that will mentally challenge them when all I want is a pretty secretary that's competent.

@om nom nom well. you're not most men. most men want something more than that, too.

@om nom nom not ALL women. I'm holding out for that super-rich dude that's got one foot in the grave. Also, no kids (i will kill any spawn if necessary). And it's probably best if he has no more than 1 living ex.

@little_p i love you.

@(imaginary)libi keepin' it real