I mean, seriously. I desire a penis, yes, but I already have one! So what's the deal there?

im lost.

With the proper technology, this question could power the world with the harnessed energy of Freud spinning in his grave. Suffice it to say, I'm completely stumped.

@Clum -- Haha, sorry. In Freudian developmental psychology, something Freud claimed we all go through is either the Elektra complex (in short, when females desire a penis because they don't have one) or it's counterpart for males, the Oedipus complex.

@FiZ -- Freud HAD to have had some sort of excuse. I can't remember too clearly from my psychology lectures, but I recall he postulated a few things about homosexuality. Whether or not he ever came up with the stages of psychosexual development for homosexuals, or where psychosexual development "went wrong" (as people in that time period would put it), is a mystery to me. One I'm hoping to solve here! :D

Maybe he'd send you over to Deleuze and Guttari to discuss the Anti-Oedipal.

I'm out of my depth, so I couldn't say for sure.

You have an Oedipus complex that you did not "properly" resolve.

Rather than realizing you could not have your mother or kill your father, but must emulate your father and find yourself another "mother," you decided to become your mother. Also, I think you may be in denial about your mother's castrated nature, but I forget.